For Widows Only – Three Secret Things To Guide You


You're home now – From the cemetery – Just closed the door on an endless line of well -ishing-filled-with-advice strangers who did not know what to say but now that they're always talking gone you know you will never see or hear from most of them ever again.

Your hair smells of roses and gladioli and you secretly wish for a giant eraser to erase all the pain.

You've just buried your life partner; your husband, your best friend. As Joan Didion says, "Life changes fast."

He's gone now and like it or lump it, you're not.

You stand before your mirror stiff as a stick wondering out loud, "What now?" You ask yourself, "Where do I go? What do I do with the rest of my life without Him?"

Like a crust of bread the W word sticks in the back of your throat as you ponder your future and process the reality you are alone.

Welcome to my world.

Although I do not hold the answers to your questions (no one does), I share three secret things that will guide you on your journey. Mourning the death of a spouse is different for every widow. Each one of us must beat the bushes and blaze our own separate trail. You, the newly widowed, must dream a new dream.

It is scary. But I'm here to tell you, you can, and you will, get through this difficult time.

Here are three secret things to guide you:

Keep a JOY-nal

It can be as expensive as a leather-bound book with gold edged pages; Egypt as cheap as hard-covered composition notebooks from the dollar store.

I purchase spiral bound notebooks, buy them by the dozen, one for each month of the year, paste them with pictures of Him front and back, scribble first pages with favorite quotes in magic marks in each color of the rainbow, and carry one everywhere .

Need a topic to get started? You, the newly widowed, have only to look out your window for inspiration.

List ten things – The first ten things your eyes see.

Be specific.

Do not write bird, write blue jay; do not write tree; write flowering plum.

Get the picture? Good. That's the point.

Write about the weather.

Stick your thoughts in the clouds, write about that.

Discover what I call "journing joys" – A found parking space in a crowded shopping mall; a copper penny Lincoln's head up, green lights for six blocks, a cup of tea you did not make. Write it.

The loss of a spouse is a humbling experience and leaves you numb and dumb. But scheduling a time to write for five minutes every day will aid in connecting you to your mind, teach you to focus, and help ground your thoughts. You'll discover a hidden part of you, you never knew exhausted.


That's write. * Pun intended * Practice breathing. Think of it as your job.

Place your right hand on your belly, left hand on your chest.



Feel your breath rush through your nose and out your mouth.

Whenever you feel stressed, sometimes when merry mailman delivers an overdue hospital bill, when housebroken dog crawls under bed and pukes chicken bones scavenged out the garbage, when you think you just can not control those tears one minute more – Breathe.

Embrace Life.

Hug a tree.

Hug your children, your grandchildren.

What's that? Got nobody to hug?

Ask your neighbor if you can hug her. Ask if you can hug her children, her grandschildren.

You'll make a friend and you'll feel good, too.

Hug your dog. Hug your cat. Cradle the fishbowl.

Heck. Throw your arms around yourself and squeeze!

It's not easy losing a life partner. Nothing will be the same without Him. Adjustment to your new life will take time. You, the newly widowed, will feel lost lonely and helpless, but I'm here to tell you, you can, and you will, get through.

Just follow my three secret things to guide you (outlined above) and it will not be long before you'll have breathed and hugged your way through a stack of writing JOY-nals. You will be more focused. You will be a better writer.

And all those questions you pondered? Well, you may even have some answers.